It's a hot night...I have no electricity and am working on batteries and candle light...and it's perfectly fine...I am guessing the keyboard...where the letters fall --- like a blind woman feeling her way through and it's perfectly fine...
Tonight I have no complaints...none whatsoever. I am happy with things as they are. I have obliterated all the ugliness from my mind, traded it for some moments of sheer joy and beauty...
I have re-captured what was missing in my life, what the other tried so hard to kill...it has resurrected like a sphinx from burnt ashes...I was so stupid to believe it had died.
The moment has come in this obscurity that surrounds me, like a beautiful black velvet cover, the moment is here, the other has not killed it...
For sure he/she tried...so hard. Strangulate, stab, crucify it...but they have failed...I have won.
I am the winner...I vanquished the opponent's death wish...and in doing so I murdered him - flat on the ground.
I am ecstatic, drunk with moments of beauty...my eyes see again in that total obscurity. I was blind now I can see. Was that not the promise ?
The other hoped to defeat me with his/her ugliness...he/she lost.
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