Am writing this for me, a reminder.
At times, I can be an ungrateful bitch, because at times am myopic, can't see the whole picture, zoom in on what's wrong and not on what's going right. I am like everybody else in that regard. And when I fall into that, I need to kick myself hard in the ass.
Woke up this morning and the audio tape started in my head...caught myself doing it. I didn't like it at all.
I saw the glass half empty, well this is about to be corrected now. Why this ingratitude ?
I don't compare myself to others, people who are better off. I am content with whom and what I am, but when that negative tape is in my head, I force myself, open my eyes and compare myself to those who are worse off, much worse off.
What am I complaining about ? By the grace of God I have legs, some people are in wheelchairs
I can read, enjoy sights, some people are blind and need to be led
I can hear, listen to music, listen to sounds ,ok I hater noise pollution, but at least I can hear, some people can't.
I have food in my fridge, some people are starving
I turn on the tap and there's water, I switch on and there's electricity, some don't have that at all.
I have a roof over my head, some people live in tents or sleep on pavements
I have a computer to rant, an education as a cushion, some never make it to school
I have clothes to wear, some wear the same torn clothes for years
Am not rich, and that's fine, but I still can go out and sit in a cafe and have a coffee, some people don't even have that luxury.
I live in a relatively peaceful country, been saved from bombs, electricity cuts, lack of water, run down hospitals, kidnappings, abductions, and being stuck between 4 walls because it's too dangerous to venture out...
So on what basis do I complain, and on what basis do I allow myself to be unhappy like this morning ?
This is my own doing.
Time to call in Gratitude.
