One Day A Year

I have this secret wish, that at least one day a year I do not have to/be able to

- answer calls and not even hear the phone ring
- answer messages, whatsapp, emails viber
- wake up at a particular hour
- hear alarm bells
- see anyone - i mean NO ONE
- sleep when I want
- eat when I want
- laze around in total sloth
- no lists pending to be executed
- no letters, reports, to write
- zero demands, zero requests, zero expectations
- hear anyone complain about anything
- answer tweets
- clean, wash, wipe, dust
- answer any obligation visible or invisible - nothing, nada
- say to myself oh shit it's 3 pm oh shit it's 9 am, oh shit it's 5 pm, oh shit it's 2 am
- hear : don't be late, so and so is coming
- hear myself say : better be up to it you have an appointment today and tomorrow and the day after
- rush through coffee breaks because of appointments
- worry about bills getting paid on time
- worry about having enough money to pay bills on time
- bump into anyone by "coincidence"
- hear "Layla don't forget"
- hear any noise, like ANY noise , not even a buzzing mosquito


One day a year of total dis-engagement from the world, like Total, even in my Head...not for 15 mn not for 2 hours but for 24 hours solid.

One day a year I do not have to hear those words loudly or silently : you must you should you have to, you could...

One day a year when the words but / if only  -- are totally erased  from of any vocabulary, loudly or silently pronounced.

One day a year when I can say fuck you to the whole world, to their expectations, demands, obligations, duties, to what is said to what is not said, one day a year ....

One day a year where I can forget where I am from, my origins, my color, my race, my nationality, my religion, my sex, my looks, my body, my brains and my heart.

One day a year where it pleasantly stops, not death like stop, but pleasantly stops, like sitting by a river and the river don't stop but I stop, and just watch it take me gently away,  transport me like on a rocking chair, a cradle, a crib....

One day a year...just one day a year when I can say Fuck It to all of it.

I am not the one to be intimidated...

I am not the one to be intimidated...

I will take you, in your presence and in your absence, shake you, turn you upside down ...and if I deem you fit, present you as a transformed gift.

I hope you read my words well...

Truth be Told...

Truth be told, I don't care much for readers....I do care and at the same time I don't care. I know how writers...whatever their degree of writing ...wish for appreciation..I don't care for appreciation.

Not that the fact of "being appreciated" is contra-nature. But you don't sell yourself for appreciation.

You are, or ought to remain authentic...no matter what...to the best of your ability...regardless if you are appreciated or not appreciated.

That has been my motto..and it shall remain.